Fragment

So this is twilight.

What holds
this moment together.

When in the film, in which
I star as myself

I say I want to be you,

what I mean is
I want to know
what it feels like.

There comes a moment,
I was warned,
when all the signs collide,

everything I have ever learned
converges.

I woke in that blindness
this morning.

The photographs I have been taking
I don't want to show them
not to anyone.

I am too much
exposed and afraid

of what might happen
in that moment.