SLEEPWALKING THROUGH MY GENDER
Sleepwalking through my gender
I fall into it and find blissful mouths
gnawing at my feet I feel impetuous
and dead No one cares or stays alive
long enough to fathom me or hear
what I am So I force myself to believe
in peace until the song ends I live
one million years longer than the
oldest tree I call myself light’s
twin sister I record my dreams of
freedom I imagine my blood as something
beyond words or language or any shape
a tongue could form without first killing
and rebuilding itself from the cosmic cum
angelic love that grips my core and
says woman woman woman woman woman
woman like a broken machine doing
its best to transcribe that which cannot
be known under these conditions Under
these men’s skies Under the purple
bruise of becoming this softness who
stays awake all night to erase truth and
replace it with meaning I write who I am
on my eyelids I say I am this or that
or the other who passes through the gates
Shows her face on the plastic Cuts and stitches
and cuts herself until everything matches
and is in its place and is understood